~ HEAVENLY ANGELS ~

~ HEAVENLY ANGELS ~

I do believe in Angels and Heaven above, I do believe our loved ones have been carried to Heaven above on the wings of Angels and I do believe we will, in fact, see them again one day. That is just my belief and my inner unexplained knowledge of what I believe to be true.  With that said,  I have had my share of loss lately and cannot find a way to get back into the swing of things.  Part of me just does not want to, not yet.  I would rather stay at home where Caesar is, where his spirit still resides, where I can still feel him and see him and not be anywhere else.  This too shall pass – this I know, but right now it’s all I can think about.  Baby Jerry has been so sweet, so loving and I know he still looks for him.  One day we will find him a play mate as he does need one to keep him active and playful.  Just not right now – we’re not ready just yet.

So, I keep getting asked about my weekend and days.  How are you they ask and I almost can’t stand the question because I don’t feel like answering.  I don’t want to talk about it, don’t want to think about it. But, I try to and find a way thru it.  As you can see, it takes me a while to get over loss, especially when they are my babies.

I say all this to say to you that though I know life happens, we are always going to lose our loved ones and it will always be difficult, we will always be tried in some way shape or form in order to shape the person we are and/or are becoming, and with all of these things happening around us, I know we have Angels with us looking after us and guiding us.  I do believe this and have prayed and talked to them more lately than I think I have in a long time.  I myself pray for guidance and strength in all aspects of my life and for others.  It’s what I do!

In closing, thank you for listening and being a part of my life through blogging.  You are all greatly appreciated and always wished Love, Light, Strength, Guidance, and always keep your Warrior Within.  Life itself is a gift, having our loved ones (furry or otherwise) in our lives is a gift and one I would not change, no matter how heartbroken I become.

Rest in Peace Tucker, Cleopatra & Caesar!  Mommy & Daddy Love You All and Miss You All Everyday!

HEAVENLY ANGELS
HEAVENLY ANGELS

I’M NOT READY TO LET YOU GO!

I had taken a break from blogging for a few days as my baby, Caesar, has been ill for quite some time and got worse lately.  I took him for a second opinion on Friday, only to find out he has kidney disease and a 4-5 cm mass by his spine (Cancer).  It was a very sad and awful weekend as we had to make the decision to let him go and not be in pain any longer.  He is now an Angel in heaven with his sister Cleopatra and brother Tucker running and playing.  They are all Angels now!  It was the worst and hardest decision we have had to make in a long time.  He was so sweet and gave us 10 1/2 years of nothing but love and kisses.  Lordy but that boy loved his snuggles and to be held like a baby.

My baby Caesar, I can’t stop crying.  I miss you so much that I feel so empty and lost without you.  You gave us so much that I still see you everywhere.  No matter where I look, there you are.  I’m not ready to let you go.  Lord help me I’m not ready…

Caesar & Wings