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ARCHANGEL GABRIEL

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Who is Archangel Gabriel?

Gabriel is one of two archangels specifically named in the Bible (the other being Michael). In the Old Testament’s Book of Daniel, Gabriel appears to Daniel to help him understand his visions of the future. In the New Testament’s Gospels, Gabriel appears in the Book of Luke in famous scenes called the Annunciation, because the archangel announces the forthcoming births of John the Baptist and Jesus Christ.Scriptural roles underscore Gabriel’s mis­sion as the supreme messenger of God, and why this archangel is the patron saint of communications workers.

Artists throughout time have portrayed the angel in the Annunciation and other images of Gabriel with feminine features, long hair, flowing gowns, and—if you look closely at the Renaissance paintings—a feminine figure. Perhaps this is be­cause Gabriel is so closely aligned with the Divine feminine situations of pregnancy, birth, and com­munication.

When To Call On Archangel Gabriel

Gabriel and Mother Mary work closely together to minister to sensitive children. They guide conceptions, adoptions, pregnancies, births, and the raising of children. Because Gabriel is deeply concerned about children’s welfare, the archangel mentors responsible and loving adults who wish to help the young. If you feel called to work with children in any capacity, please ask Gabriel to help you. Gabriel helps earthly messengers such as teach­ers, counselors, writers, artists, and actors. This arch­angel acts like a Heavenly agent and manager who motivates you to polish your skills. Gabriel then opens the door of opportunity for you to work in your chosen career, and gives you a loving push through it if you hesitate.

Gabriel’s halo is copper colored, like the angel’s symbolic trumpet. If you see flashes or sparkles of copper light, or if you find yourself suddenly attracted to this metal, this is a sign that you’re working with Archangel Gabriel.

Archangel Gabriel’s Color:

Copper

Crystal or Gemstone:

Copper

Astrological Sign:

Cancer, the nurturing and hardworking parent

An Affirmation to Archangel Gabriel

“Archangel Gabriel, thank you for helping me parent my beloved child. Please watch over me and my little  one, ensuring our health and happiness.

I do Love learning as much as I can about my Angels and Doreen Virtue is a HUGE help and filled with knowledge.  I just love her and her site!  This Archangel information comes straight from her, so please take note and ask Archangel Gabriel for guidance of your life’s path, parental guidance, and/or guidance for your children.  I talk to my Angels all the time and know they are constantly with me – guiding me.

Always with Light & Love my Angels!!

THE ENLIGHTENMENT OF CANCER ~ PART V

Posted on by Enlightenment Angels in September

THE ENLIGHTENMENT OF CANCER ~ PART V

It’s funny how something like this reveals the people in your life (family and friends) who are really there for you and those who just can’t take you being ill and leave you.  It’s heartbreaking, but eye-opening. Lord help me ~ I don’t get it…

Surgery was on October 2, 2009, it’s been 11 days of having these drains, pain pump and port in. The port I’ll have for a while, but the pump and drains come out soon.  They are uncomfortable and trying to sleep with them, forget it.  I cannot get comfortable sleeping so Rob will come and lay behind me so I can lean on him and then, finally then, I can rest and get some sleep.  I relax, close my eyes and fall asleep with him behind me – holding me and holding me up in a comfortable position to sleep.

I CANNOT LOOK at myself YET or do I even want to. I cannot even bring myself to wash. I just
cannot do it. Rob hung a sheet up in the bathroom so that I would not have to look in the mirror and he also dries me off. I could not bring myself to do any of it.  One, because I was still in pain and two, because I was just not ready. It’s one thing to see yourself in the mirror as whole person and another to see yourself in the mirror after a surgery with something missing.

10-13

I had an appointment with my reconstruction doctor, Dr. Bosshardt, for my first checkup after surgery. Dr. Bosshardt removed my bandages, my drains on both sides as well as my pain pump. I was wrapped so tightly that I thought it was supposed to be that way. I never questioned because you assume the hospital staff and OR staff  know what they are doing.  Dr. Bosshardt was
very upset that I was wrapped so tight by the OR staff.  Dr. Bosshardt  proceeded to remove my stitches, which I was unaware that he wanted to do that. I do believe it’s best sometimes that one does not know what a doctor is going to do so he can just do it. It saves the patient (me) from being anxious or having an anxiety attack of the thought of something getting ready to occur.  (Thank goodness for the anxiety meds)

On a side note, Dr. Bosshardt of Tavares, FL is awesome!  He is so nice and made me feel comfortable and like he really cared about me as a person and was there for me at all hours.  Most times that is missing in doctors anymore.

STILL CANNOT LOOK YET!

10-16

Ah, my first session of chemotherapy at 10:00 a.m. I was so nervous because I did not know what
to expect. The port that was placed in just above what was my left breast and below my collar-bone.  The port is very uncomfortable and feels like it touches the expander. The nurse, Billie, was very nice and attentive in making sure I was comfortable. She sprayed some numbing spray on the port area so that I would not feel the needle insertion. The numbing spray freezes up and makes the area very cold, I did not feel a thing. Before I knew it, she had entered the needle and the first drips of  a combination of benadryl and anxiety medicine were already being started. After those two I began my TC meds or cocktails.

10-17 & 18

The weekend went just fine. I only had slight nausea, but other than that I felt fine.

STILL CANNOT LOOK YET or want to. I cannot even bring myself to wash. I just cannot do it.

10-19 to 22

I went in to the office of my Oncologist, Dr. Kunta, for my shot to boost my white blood cells with RN, Laura on the 19th. Oh goodness, that is when it hit me. I was nauseous all throughout the week
with stomach discomfort constantly. I was not really hungry or thirsty for anything, but I had to keep drinking especially water to keep myself hydrated. Thank goodness for Rob to keep up with me.

10-21

I thought I was feeling better and tried to go to work, but only made it three (3) hours. Rob came and got me and took me home to rest. I slept most of the afternoon. I was much better the following afternoon.  Eric, Herb, Esq. and Lynn from my work are all so helpful and supportive.  I can’t believe I lucked out and have individuals like this in my life.  And, let’s not forget about Cindy, Kathy, Blair, and Dusty who have all been so supportive and always there for me.  What great people I can call my friends.  My Winter Garden crew!

I had my first appointment with Dr. Bosshardt for my first expansion which went well. I was nervous, but did not feel a thing. It was painless and Dr. Bosshardt and his nurse Lauren are great!!

FINALLY ~
I tried to wash myself and it went ok. I still have a hard time touching the areas and have a hard time trying to look into the mirror. I cannot put Palmers lotion on or Vitamin E oil on as needed because I am not strong enough mentally, so Rob does ALL of these things and MORE for me. With no complaints – only a smile and loving words.

10-22

I had a 9:00 a.m. therapy appointment with Kristi Secrest for my right side. I had met with her prior to surgery where she gave me some exercises to do afterward and that I had been doing all along. Those exercises were great and helped me stay ahead of the game as far as therapy. When I went in, she stated I looked great and that I did not need to come back in to see her, but just keep up on my exercises and call her if I need her. It was suggested that I come in to see her when I am ready to move my exercises to light weights so we can go through the safest way to work that in. Other than that, I can move forward, stay on top of my exercises and there is no reason why I cannot workout if I feel like it. Just take it easy.

THE ENLIGHTENMENT OF CANCER ~ Part I ~ Have You Ever Wondered What It’s Like…

Posted on by Enlightenment Angels in August

THE ENLIGHTENMENT OF CANCER ~ Part I ~ Have You Ever Wondered What It’s Like…

In order for us to have a friendship and communicate well, we should get to know each other a little better.  So, I thought I would share my story so others can understand what it’s like to live with and live through Cancer.

I have had mammograms since I was thirty-­five because of a cyst I had found through a
self-examination, which turned out to be only that. When I was thirty­-eight, I had another
Mammogram as I usually do every October which turned out to be clean. Seven months later and
once I had moved to Minneola, FL, I wanted to find another doctor closer than where I was
going in order to be more efficient and close. I located an ad for a Dr. Mary Beth Lewis-
Boardman located here in the Clermont, FL area and proceeded to make her my official new OBGYN.  In July of 2009 as I waited in the cold exam room with nothing on but a gown so as to have my examination, I sat and wondered about the usual day-to-day routines in life. As my examination completed, Dr. Lewis suggested I get a mammogram even though October was right around the corner and was my usual date for such. I sat and wondered and asked why she thought I needed to get the mammogram done now instead of in October. I had even asked if she felt something during the examination. She stated that she did not feel anything but thought that it might be a good idea to go ahead and just get it over with. I could not agree more so I decided to go ahead and let her staff make me an appointment. On week later I was sitting in the waiting area to go back for my mammogram still only thinking of the daily routines in life and that I really need to get back to work. A job I had just started. As I was being called back for my examination, Helen, who had sympathy for the women coming for mammograms was professional yet nice. The machine that is used to squeeze, pull and smash your breast, however, was not so nice or warm I might add.  As my examination ended, Helen stated my test results would be sent out for review and then the results to the doctor.

As we all know, mammograms are compared to the previous so as to make sure
everything is still normal. My mammogram taken that day in July of 2009 was compared to my
prior mammogram taken in October of 2008 and showed abnormalities and I was advised by Dr. Lewis that a biopsy would be needed and she knew just the doctor. In August I went to see Dr. Jason Boardman of Clermont, FL who was very nice and completed the biopsy in a timely manner. Again I was not thinking of a thing other than I am sure this is just cyst as before. I never gave it a second thought that it could be Cancer. I continued through life with my daily routines and my new job just as always when on August 25 and while at work Dr. Boardman called. It was 3:30 p.m. and
slow that day at work at the Law Office of Eric S. Mashburn. I was at my desk working away
on opening new client files and procedures when out of the blue my cell phone rang. I got up from
my desk with my cell phone in my hand and went into the kitchen to talk. It was Dr. Boardman on
the other end who stated he personally wanted to call me and call me at work instead of having me
wait for an official office visit for the news of the biopsy. He went on further to state that my
results had just came back and that the biopsy was proven to be cancerous. He then stated that
there was no easy way to tell anyone this, but I had cancer. I realized I had walked out of the
kitchen and into the hallway of the office (which is a very small office) and was staring down the
hallway into the office of Mr. Mashburn when I remember saying to Dr. Boardman that I
appreciated the fact that he called me and he called me at work to tell me. I would have hated to
have to wait for an office visit to find out. He stated that my case is “Invasive Ductal
Carcinoma and triple negative at that” and that I needed to make an appointment to come in to see
him to discuss this further and as soon as possible. I then, while still in a daze, proceeded to make an appointment for an office visit.

After I hung up the phone and while still in disbelief and shock I called Rob at work to
give him the news. I knew I should not tell him such things at work and it might be better in
person, but he would be upset if I did not call him to tell him right away and I did not think I could
wait until I got home to tell him. When I called Rob at work and told him the news from Dr.
Boardman he was in shock but went right into action. He said that we will fight this and that
treatment is not the same as they had 20 years ago. He was already going into his fighting/action
mode without hesitation. He is a fact getter, researcher, learns and retains a lot especially when it
comes to medical issues and nutrition. He was and is my strength.

To Be Continued…

Until tomorrow my Angels!  Always with Light, Love, Strength, Guidance & Our Warrior Within!

YES ~ CANCER SUCKS, BUT…

Posted on by Enlightenment Angels in August

Yes, Cancer sucks, but at least we have great individuals out there either working in the medical field helping others in some way or those on the back end of the medical field (behind the scenes so to speak) trying to and sometimes finding cures for such diseases.  Like these two gentlemen I have the honor and privilege to call my Angel friends: Elliot Kahen, who is a  Molecular Biologist who helps to cure Cancer in children; and his father, Howard Kahen,  who is Shadowmaster at Pasco-Hernando State College, President at Reflections Medical Aesthetics and Diagnostic Radiologist at Radiology Associates West Pasco.

Once you have Cancer, it is always, in some way shape or form a part of your life.  It will be there forever, there is no forgetting about it.  It never goes away, mentally anyway.  They don’t tell you about that part of it when you are diagnosed or going thru the procedures.  Or after for that matter.  For me, getting the treatments and the surgeries were hard, draining, cold, exhausting (both mentally and physically), but the hardest was after.  The constant reminders of Cancer everywhere you look, the constant reminder when looking at yourself in the mirror every day, the remembrance of when you couldn’t look at yourself in the mirror because of the surgeries, the scars, the mental images of those times that never truly go away, the images of the loved ones worrying about you, the image of your spouse or caretaker taking care of you on a constant basis, the loved ones lost to such a disease, and then you remember and have the knowledge that you are in fact, still here to celebrate your life.  You stop, you smile at yourself in the mirror, you acknowledge that time and then you move on.

Move on – that’s right – I said it.  Move on.  You give yourself a little time to think and ponder and then move on.  Remind yourself that you fought Cancer and won.  You move on because you fought it like a champ and won! You are a Warrior, a Fighter, a Survivor!  You are here to Live Life to the fullest and by God you are going to do it!

You also remind yourself that you are always, in a way, still fighting Cancer in everything you do and everything you eat.  Your top priority is yourself!  Exercising for a healthier you and eating the proper foods for a healthier and better you. Your life is precious and your body is a precious vessel that should be treated as such because you only have one life and one body to live in.  So, why feed it junk food, why not exercise to take care of it, why do you even have to ask? It’s simple, I workout and give 110% because it makes me a better person, it makes me feel better about my self and I know my health is better because of it.  It’s that simple.  For me anyway.

I will say this, that maybe some don’t… Cancer was a gift!  Yes, a gift.  It wakes you up from your foggy existence here in life and makes you see things that you didn’t either see before or appreciate before.  Most don’t or didn’t see it until something like this comes up and smacks you in the face and says “Stop and Look Around, Life is Too Short to Keep on Like This!  What are you doing that you think this is important in life?”  It makes you rethink everything you ever knew or thought you knew.

There is no doubt in my mind that there are Angels around us, looking over us, keeping us close.  There is no doubt in my mind that my Lord and Savior are always there and have always been there for me.  Even when I thought I was alone.  I have no doubts!

So, my Angels, my message is this… love yourself for exactly who you are, for exactly your shape and size, for exactly your hair color, love yourself and others because at the end of the day, none of that stuff matters.  Take care of yourself and your body because it’s the only self and body you have.  I’m not going to love someone for their hair color, for their shape and size, or whatever else.  I’m going to love them for what’s inside, the way they take care of themselves, the way they treat me, the way they treat others and my family.  That’s it.

Now, go and remember to look up and smile because you are loved and cherished more than you realize.

CHEERS MY ANGELS ~ WITH LIFE, LIGHT, POSITIVITY, STRENGTH, BEING THE WARRIOR WITHIN, GUIDANCE, and LOVE!

Take Care ~

Posted on by Enlightenment Angels in July

They say, it’s all in how you take care of them.  Haha – implants that is.  That and how they are made.  You know, when you are going through the process of Breast Cancer and decide on reconstructive surgery after having a double mastectomy, that is usually the last thing on your mind – how you take care of them.  They say that you used to have to get them replaced every ten (10) years.  But now, depending on how they are and you are taken care of, they could last longer than that.  Especially the way they are made these days.  These days they are more dependable and more durable.  Yes, I did say more durable.  8)

I say all this because a number of women I know have gone through this process and for me it was a no brainer.  Double Mastectomy = check; reconstruction = check; process/pain only once = check.  It was a quick and easy decision for me.  Now, after being just over five (5) years out, I find myself still getting used to them.  The thoughts of that time, the images, the process you went thru never goes away.  You just learn how to deal with it as time passes.  You continue to learn how to deal with and live with implants that still feel strange at times.  They certainly are different than the real things, but given the choice between fighting Cancer and leaving your original breasts that you had Cancer in or fighting Cancer and getting rid of the original breasts all together only to get new ones (or not) – well there is no real choice is there… it only made sense to me.  Take these things, I don’t want them or need them.

To all the women out there who have had, are going through now, or are just being diagnosed I say to you to stay strong!  I say stay positive, stay away from negative people, believe and continue to have faith, and most of all, do what is best for you!  For you I said, not your spouse, not your family, but you.  What is it you want!  They are not carrying around those breasts and dealing with this, you are.  So, talk it through with your significant other (should you choose) and know, just know, that you are not alone.  You are never alone because at the end of the day, there are more women out there that have been through and/or are going through exactly what you are.  Of course, everyone’s case is different, but the same nonetheless.

They are just breasts – get rid of them (if that is your decision).

It’s funny to me that when I think back I used to always say “I would never get implants.”  And, I never would – on purpose!  My breasts were taken away to serve a higher purpose and to show myself and others that there is more to life than physical appearance and meaningless things.

So, my dear survivors and friends – do take care – take care of yourself and enjoy this life you have.  Enjoy your Friday, your weekend, your family, but most of all – enjoy spending time with you!  This is your life, your way, your future!  So, live ~ love ~ laugh!  And dance like no one is watching!

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Cheers and thank you for taking the time out of your day to read about taking care!